come midnight

and he crawled, crawled hot and hard, she rocked her hips and showed the whites of her eyes, he crawled right up under her skin and his stare grabbed her by the throat and broke her breath down into sighs 

stop shaking, he promised, I will wind wildflowers into your hair and the gold spun valley will be our wedding bed.

 

your eyes could tear open a summer sky, the heavens would come falling into your arms.

you are my narcotic, i fell to my knees at the sound of your voice. we were never meant to find each other, but if you leave now, i will wander lost forever.

take note

When I'm in his bed, you don't even exist.

take this world away from me.
you've tied up my hands so I cant feel my way out of this

i'll wait

how much longer are you going to run from this?
i bet your feet are getting tired

say it.
my name, let it swell on your lips and roll down your throat
say it.

part 2

feel me in the morning, 
i am still real
my dreams poured out on your pillowcase
underneath all that flesh is a caged heart, pale and beautiful,
dissociative, but calm, waiting for you to ask me something, anything, my fingers shake
tap tap tap tap taptap the keys taptap
i want to drown in you

oh yes

                                                        goddam boy, you put a spell on me.
              

4 am

take me home

if you cant stop shaking,

 ill take twice as much as you did. 

if you cant stop drowning, 

i'll swallow the whole sea

the circulatory system's down.

try breathing now.