come midnight

and he crawled, crawled hot and hard, she rocked her hips and showed the whites of her eyes, he crawled right up under her skin and his stare grabbed her by the throat and broke her breath down into sighs 

stop shaking, he promised, I will wind wildflowers into your hair and the gold spun valley will be our wedding bed.

 

your eyes could tear open a summer sky, the heavens would come falling into your arms.

you are my narcotic, i fell to my knees at the sound of your voice. we were never meant to find each other, but if you leave now, i will wander lost forever.

take note

When I'm in his bed, you don't even exist.

take this world away from me.
you've tied up my hands so I cant feel my way out of this

i'll wait

how much longer are you going to run from this?
i bet your feet are getting tired

say it.
my name, let it swell on your lips and roll down your throat
say it.

part 2

feel me in the morning, 
i am still real
my dreams poured out on your pillowcase
underneath all that flesh is a caged heart, pale and beautiful,
dissociative, but calm, waiting for you to ask me something, anything, my fingers shake
tap tap tap tap taptap the keys taptap
i want to drown in you

oh yes

                                                        goddam boy, you put a spell on me.
              

4 am

take me home

if you cant stop shaking,

 ill take twice as much as you did. 

if you cant stop drowning, 

i'll swallow the whole sea

the circulatory system's down.

try breathing now.

joy

" After all this time"
"Always"


fate wears a twisted grin.

waiting

i let my mind wander and it runs to you

strong hands, a steady heartbeat is all i need to keep me sane until summer, then you can pretend that you dont exsist to me, i just need your warmth to pretend that its summer until the cold crawls away back into the ground and releases the warm toxins and perfume of summer breezes 

i just need to pretend until summer

i let my mind wander and it runs to you. 

oh hello

you haunt me in every way.
i wonder what your sign is.
then again, knowing will probably break my heart.

staying alive

the streets are all so symmetrical here
its back to school
your offering trees rotting in the gutters
the streets are perfectly symmetrical here
prescriptions need to be refilled

this new decade

today is a palindrome

i had a dream about the car crash i was in last night
in my head i romanticize the noisy matrimony of glittering glass and incandescent smoke.

for you, 

a black top abstract piece to emulate the meeting between your revelation and the consequence of your addiction

sirens and bone, drunken steel and an immortal radio.

I've got a an unhealthy crush on the ambulance that carries you home

when i saw you again after months of absence
my heart couldnt have started beating any faster when you caught my attention